Mom: So... what's going on? What is in your mind?
Son: Nothing mom... What it is about?
Mom: Don't try to fool us... You know it is about your marriage...
Son: Oh, com'on mom... You have given birth to me... you know I don't want that...
Mom: But why...? And don't give me any of your most like reasons... "I can't do..."... "I don't know..." Its enough... enough of sufferings for all of us... either do it or leave us...
Son: How I can leave you...? How you can think like that...?
Mom: So do it... what is stopping you...? Give the reasons...
Son: Mom, The only reason I can give you is that I can't do it... You know me.. I just can't do... It will be a sin for me... with my soul
Mom: Sin...? What the hell is this now..? Have you done something wrong...?
Son: No mom.. I can't do anything wrong with anyone... that is how I am...
Mom: So tell me what it is all about... and be honest...
Son: Mom, it is right that as of now, I don't have anyone to look forward... there is no-one waiting for me... there is nothing I have done wrong with anyone... I just can't do it... I can't accept and think of any person if it comes to spend rest of my life with...
Mom: (Screamed) I have enough of this nonsense and movie dialogues... I need to know the reason... or if there is someone, tell me and I will try to do something about it...
Son: Mom... I swear on you... I am just all alone... I just can't be with anyone else... I am useless for anyone...
Mom: Stop all this nonsense and try to be sensible... Give me a reason why you can't do it, or if you have someone, why you are not able to tell me...
Son: Is everything you can say and explain in life? Can you explain God, air...? Can you explain everything in your life...?
Mom: Don't try to play with me... Tell me the truth...
Son: I never being this much honest in my life... I want to say... that I can't be with anyone else, and I can't tell you more than this, because I have nothing...
Mom: So what you are trying to do...? Kill all of us...? I know you are a cheater since your birth... you are the most dishonest person... to me, to your dad, to everyone... you are a born lier...
Son: Stop all this... why are you saying all this to me? I never do that mom... I never cheat anyone... Why I have to do this with you? I have no reason...
Mom: No, you have your reasons... you are too selfish and self centered to think about anyone else...
Son: So is it wrong to think about myself?
Mom: I don't want any argument with you, I know you will win anyways... I want the fact...
Son: Mom... the fact is... I can't cheat myself... I can't be a machine so that I can choose anyone in my life out of your choices and I spend my whole life like that... Trust me... I am being myself... I want to be honest and don't want to lie you... I just don't want any partner in this journey...
Mom: Okay... So we both, me and your dad, will be leaving tomorrow, or better today... and you will be free to do whatever you want to do...
Son: This is pathetic... why you have to do so? I should be the one who will be saying this to you... as you think I am wrong, I should be leaving the house...
Dad: Yes... you pathetic piece of shit... you should be leaving the house... why we should pay for your doings and your will. But in the end, whatever you will be doing, we will be the sufferrer... as the people, the society will say that he was their son... you have no identity, nobody who know you... we are your identity in this society... So, we will be the ultimate sufferer... do whatever you want to do... but then don't come to our graves... don't even show your face to us...
Mom: You please calm down.. let me talk to him...
Son: Why it is becoming a life deal for both of you if I don't want to do this...? What right you are giving to me about my life...? The decision should be mine... why you are making me so helpless and in this dilemma? Why you are threatening me like this rather then getting me, my point?
Dad: Because you have no point at all... your life is useless, you are a cheater, dishonest and untrustable person... You have no direction in your life... You are telling us to believe your belief... the belief for which you even can't provide a reason...
Son: I have no reason, that is right dad... but I have a belief in something which has a reason... and its not unreasonable... I know that... You are not believing me at this point... but I know, sometime, when you will be alone, when you will be talking to yourself... all of my these illogical reasons will turn logical to you... when you will be thinking about me as a person... a person who believed in something and how you broke his faith due to your unnecessary pressures... how due to your own selfishness and fear of your fake pride in the society, you made your own son to suffer like this... What all I am asking? I am asking to be alone... its not a deal for your life and death...
Dad: Enough of your lectures... Tell me what do you want...
Son: If you can't be a dad, atleast be a human... still you are asking what I want...?
Dad: (to mom) ... See... this is we have to get when we give the quality education to our children... This is the return... It was your plan to let him free and enjoy his life... and now, see what we have to get through...
Mom: Son... what is the issue...? Why you just can't listen to us now a days...?
Son: Mom... you gave me birth.. I know your innersole is telling you that you should set me free out of all this... atleast you understand me...
Mom: I understand you... but I can't stand against your dad...
Dad: (to mom) Ohh... so now you also turned like him... "You understand him...". What are you understandings...? Let me also get it...
Mom: That I don't know... I only know that I have to be with you... either way...
Son: I know mom... I know you too have been wrap up in these fake relationships and unknown boundaries... Actually I don't blame any one of you... Its my curse to be here...
Dad: You listening..? (to mom)... How big he has turned...? Why don't you leave all of us and turn to a saint giving lectures how parents should be like? You are at that stage of your life where you think you are only the right person... and we all are fools.. who gave you birth, who made you educated... who made you what you are today now...
Son: Yes dad, this is my only curse... to be like that... to be honest and not to have guts to leave you people... because I have to take care of you, like you did for me...
Dad: Ohh... please.. no need to do that sir... let us leave at our own... let the destiny decide something for us.. don't try to be our caretaker.. we can do that...
Son: Now I can say that you don't understand anything at all what I am talking about...
Dad: You coward.. you don't have guts to leave... that is the fact...
Son: Yes... that is the fact dad.. I don't have guts to do that... I am a coward.... you are right... and you know what? I am like this because I care about you... and the only thing which is missing is... just understand me... listen to me...
Dad: I am leaving home right away... I can't be in this house anymore...
Son: Why you have to leave dad? It should be me... As per you... I am a shameless creature, dishonest and a lier... so what right I have to be in this house? I don't want you people to suffer because of me... I just can't do that...But the irony is... you will anyway suffer even if I will leave you... I know that... You are ready to suffer, but not to understand me... You are ready to giveup on me, rather to listen to me...
Dad: (Screamed) Yes!!! I am ready to suffer.. I will think that I had no son... Or he is dead!!!
Son: That is your problem... you are ready to accept that I am dead, rather then accept me as a living being... for your own reasons...
Dad: Enough... just go out of my sight...
Son: One day will come dad, when you will be questioning yourself... "What was the need to do all that... with my own son?" And I know you will have no answer for that... I will do whatever you want me to do...
Dad: I want nothing from you... I know you will not be happy..
Son: That is a relation... you know I will not be happy.. but you have to force me to do so...
Dad: You lier... I don't want to force you to do anything... I want you to either be happy with us, with all the decisions we are making for you, or just leave us...
Son: I can only guarantee one thing... I can't leave you like this... about hapiness, I can't commit to be happy with whatsoever decisions you will be making for me... you are not responsible for my sufferings or my happiness... Its very much my own decisions to be happy or not to be...
Dad: See... we can't win over him.. get out... or I will leave...
Son: Fine dad... you need not to leave... I am leaving.. I tried my best... if possible, please forgive me for all the pain I have given to you...
Mom: Son... there is no reason for me to see all this... (fainted)
Son: Mom.. wake up... please.. for God sake...
Dad: You idiot... leave her... this is all because of you...
Son: See dad... can you see that...? I think you got your reasons why I just can't leave... You are right... I am a coward... I have no guts to do that... you are my dad... you got it right...
Silence... till mom got conscious... and the life continued...
God Bless!!! If there some waiting... :)
Son: Nothing mom... What it is about?
Mom: Don't try to fool us... You know it is about your marriage...
Son: Oh, com'on mom... You have given birth to me... you know I don't want that...
Mom: But why...? And don't give me any of your most like reasons... "I can't do..."... "I don't know..." Its enough... enough of sufferings for all of us... either do it or leave us...
Son: How I can leave you...? How you can think like that...?
Mom: So do it... what is stopping you...? Give the reasons...
Son: Mom, The only reason I can give you is that I can't do it... You know me.. I just can't do... It will be a sin for me... with my soul
Mom: Sin...? What the hell is this now..? Have you done something wrong...?
Son: No mom.. I can't do anything wrong with anyone... that is how I am...
Mom: So tell me what it is all about... and be honest...
Son: Mom, it is right that as of now, I don't have anyone to look forward... there is no-one waiting for me... there is nothing I have done wrong with anyone... I just can't do it... I can't accept and think of any person if it comes to spend rest of my life with...
Mom: (Screamed) I have enough of this nonsense and movie dialogues... I need to know the reason... or if there is someone, tell me and I will try to do something about it...
Son: Mom... I swear on you... I am just all alone... I just can't be with anyone else... I am useless for anyone...
Mom: Stop all this nonsense and try to be sensible... Give me a reason why you can't do it, or if you have someone, why you are not able to tell me...
Son: Is everything you can say and explain in life? Can you explain God, air...? Can you explain everything in your life...?
Mom: Don't try to play with me... Tell me the truth...
Son: I never being this much honest in my life... I want to say... that I can't be with anyone else, and I can't tell you more than this, because I have nothing...
Mom: So what you are trying to do...? Kill all of us...? I know you are a cheater since your birth... you are the most dishonest person... to me, to your dad, to everyone... you are a born lier...
Son: Stop all this... why are you saying all this to me? I never do that mom... I never cheat anyone... Why I have to do this with you? I have no reason...
Mom: No, you have your reasons... you are too selfish and self centered to think about anyone else...
Son: So is it wrong to think about myself?
Mom: I don't want any argument with you, I know you will win anyways... I want the fact...
Son: Mom... the fact is... I can't cheat myself... I can't be a machine so that I can choose anyone in my life out of your choices and I spend my whole life like that... Trust me... I am being myself... I want to be honest and don't want to lie you... I just don't want any partner in this journey...
Mom: Okay... So we both, me and your dad, will be leaving tomorrow, or better today... and you will be free to do whatever you want to do...
Son: This is pathetic... why you have to do so? I should be the one who will be saying this to you... as you think I am wrong, I should be leaving the house...
Dad: Yes... you pathetic piece of shit... you should be leaving the house... why we should pay for your doings and your will. But in the end, whatever you will be doing, we will be the sufferrer... as the people, the society will say that he was their son... you have no identity, nobody who know you... we are your identity in this society... So, we will be the ultimate sufferer... do whatever you want to do... but then don't come to our graves... don't even show your face to us...
Mom: You please calm down.. let me talk to him...
Son: Why it is becoming a life deal for both of you if I don't want to do this...? What right you are giving to me about my life...? The decision should be mine... why you are making me so helpless and in this dilemma? Why you are threatening me like this rather then getting me, my point?
Dad: Because you have no point at all... your life is useless, you are a cheater, dishonest and untrustable person... You have no direction in your life... You are telling us to believe your belief... the belief for which you even can't provide a reason...
Son: I have no reason, that is right dad... but I have a belief in something which has a reason... and its not unreasonable... I know that... You are not believing me at this point... but I know, sometime, when you will be alone, when you will be talking to yourself... all of my these illogical reasons will turn logical to you... when you will be thinking about me as a person... a person who believed in something and how you broke his faith due to your unnecessary pressures... how due to your own selfishness and fear of your fake pride in the society, you made your own son to suffer like this... What all I am asking? I am asking to be alone... its not a deal for your life and death...
Dad: Enough of your lectures... Tell me what do you want...
Son: If you can't be a dad, atleast be a human... still you are asking what I want...?
Dad: (to mom) ... See... this is we have to get when we give the quality education to our children... This is the return... It was your plan to let him free and enjoy his life... and now, see what we have to get through...
Mom: Son... what is the issue...? Why you just can't listen to us now a days...?
Son: Mom... you gave me birth.. I know your innersole is telling you that you should set me free out of all this... atleast you understand me...
Mom: I understand you... but I can't stand against your dad...
Dad: (to mom) Ohh... so now you also turned like him... "You understand him...". What are you understandings...? Let me also get it...
Mom: That I don't know... I only know that I have to be with you... either way...
Son: I know mom... I know you too have been wrap up in these fake relationships and unknown boundaries... Actually I don't blame any one of you... Its my curse to be here...
Dad: You listening..? (to mom)... How big he has turned...? Why don't you leave all of us and turn to a saint giving lectures how parents should be like? You are at that stage of your life where you think you are only the right person... and we all are fools.. who gave you birth, who made you educated... who made you what you are today now...
Son: Yes dad, this is my only curse... to be like that... to be honest and not to have guts to leave you people... because I have to take care of you, like you did for me...
Dad: Ohh... please.. no need to do that sir... let us leave at our own... let the destiny decide something for us.. don't try to be our caretaker.. we can do that...
Son: Now I can say that you don't understand anything at all what I am talking about...
Dad: You coward.. you don't have guts to leave... that is the fact...
Son: Yes... that is the fact dad.. I don't have guts to do that... I am a coward.... you are right... and you know what? I am like this because I care about you... and the only thing which is missing is... just understand me... listen to me...
Dad: I am leaving home right away... I can't be in this house anymore...
Son: Why you have to leave dad? It should be me... As per you... I am a shameless creature, dishonest and a lier... so what right I have to be in this house? I don't want you people to suffer because of me... I just can't do that...But the irony is... you will anyway suffer even if I will leave you... I know that... You are ready to suffer, but not to understand me... You are ready to giveup on me, rather to listen to me...
Dad: (Screamed) Yes!!! I am ready to suffer.. I will think that I had no son... Or he is dead!!!
Son: That is your problem... you are ready to accept that I am dead, rather then accept me as a living being... for your own reasons...
Dad: Enough... just go out of my sight...
Son: One day will come dad, when you will be questioning yourself... "What was the need to do all that... with my own son?" And I know you will have no answer for that... I will do whatever you want me to do...
Dad: I want nothing from you... I know you will not be happy..
Son: That is a relation... you know I will not be happy.. but you have to force me to do so...
Dad: You lier... I don't want to force you to do anything... I want you to either be happy with us, with all the decisions we are making for you, or just leave us...
Son: I can only guarantee one thing... I can't leave you like this... about hapiness, I can't commit to be happy with whatsoever decisions you will be making for me... you are not responsible for my sufferings or my happiness... Its very much my own decisions to be happy or not to be...
Dad: See... we can't win over him.. get out... or I will leave...
Son: Fine dad... you need not to leave... I am leaving.. I tried my best... if possible, please forgive me for all the pain I have given to you...
Mom: Son... there is no reason for me to see all this... (fainted)
Son: Mom.. wake up... please.. for God sake...
Dad: You idiot... leave her... this is all because of you...
Son: See dad... can you see that...? I think you got your reasons why I just can't leave... You are right... I am a coward... I have no guts to do that... you are my dad... you got it right...
Silence... till mom got conscious... and the life continued...
God Bless!!! If there some waiting... :)
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