I need to break this travelog for this post... I feel so...
So when I am writing all this, I am "being", its like A 2 Z... or nothing, thinking nothing, because can't.
Its here... right now!!! I am happy, I am sad, I am confused. I convince myself sometimes by the quotes like "Confusion is the most honest state...". I know this is. People worry more about their sufferings rather than enjoying the moments which they can. Sufferings override the best moments they have at present... But as I said, I am highly confused; I don't expect myself not to show this. So, I also think that this happens, the suffering overrides the little moments of happiness, joy, a feeling of being juvenile again, a feeling of being in college again... :), but it can't take that from you. As I said I am confused, I can't explain everything... actually, not anything. And I don't want to do so also. If you force yourself to do so, that's being injustice with the moments.
Words like joy, happiness are often getting used now a days. The whole world seems to be trying to show this. We forget about reading the faces and feeling this thing, but we learned to talk about this a lot. That's a good thing also, we learned something... But the nucleotide thing is... what makes you happy, joyful? Can you do a bifurcation between happiness & satisfaction? I felt happiness inside me because I felt satisfied sometimes back when I was able to deliver some message, though hints, and in bits & pieces. I was confused, I am confused and I will remain confused about the same. And that is my source for happiness. To being not in this state, I will loose the source.
I read something very interesting about Joy... "Joy is not the result of what you do; Joy is a state of being that enters your heart when you are open to learning and taking loving care of yourself. Joy is the feeling of exuberance and oneness that envelopes you once you have opened to feeling your pain, learning from it, and moving through it." ... Though not completely agreed, as people may have different views/definitions, but I feel good to read this.
I am blank, I am empty, I am full, I am sad, I am happy, I am feeling anything, feeling nothing, I am feeling everything. Its not about love, liking etc..., it can't be. Either it is nothing or more than that. I always wakeup my lazy person inside while defining or giving name to something. Giving name would be injustice... defining may be injustice...Its here and there, its everywhere... its now!!! Experience life in all possible ways -- good-bad, bitter-sweet, dark-light...what matters is you should either feel good about everything, about the experience you are gaining or you have already gained, or should not feel anything. Being sad also can be beautiful, feeling being lonely can have its own experience. Don't know, may be depends...I am still on my stand... I am confused...If you really want to know what it is, you need to be absolutely blank.
As Osho said... "Mind can accept any boundary anywhere. But the reality is that, by its very nature, existence cannot have any boundary, because what will be beyond the boundary - again another sky. That's why I'm saying skies upon skies are available for your flight. Don't be content easily. Those who remain content easily remain small: small are their joys, small are their ecstasies, small are their silences, small is their being. But there is no need! This smallness is your own imposition upon your freedom, upon your unlimited possibilities, upon your unlimited potential."
"All the Buddhas of all the ages have been telling you a very simple fact: Be -- don't try to become. Within these two words, be and becoming, your whole life is contained. Being is enlightenment, becoming is ignorance."
So when I am writing all this above, I am "being", its like A 2 Z... or nothing, thinking nothing, because I can't. I don't have any problems when the time will come and I will say I am "becoming"... because I don't feel any issue being a human... We, the humans always have our own right and wrongs, we manipulate things, we always trying to "becoming"... not "be"... so what...? We are also leaning things, its learning phase... and at some/any moments in our lifetime, we will feel that we should be "being" and will implement...
So many things or may be nothing... :) ... but its like a feeling of joy, may be I take everything like this way, happiness, sadness... anything... I always take an advantage of being confused... someone can vouch on me for this, can say anything to me, good, bad, weird... Its again like being A 2 Z or nothing...
God bless!!! :)
So when I am writing all this, I am "being", its like A 2 Z... or nothing, thinking nothing, because can't.
Its here... right now!!! I am happy, I am sad, I am confused. I convince myself sometimes by the quotes like "Confusion is the most honest state...". I know this is. People worry more about their sufferings rather than enjoying the moments which they can. Sufferings override the best moments they have at present... But as I said, I am highly confused; I don't expect myself not to show this. So, I also think that this happens, the suffering overrides the little moments of happiness, joy, a feeling of being juvenile again, a feeling of being in college again... :), but it can't take that from you. As I said I am confused, I can't explain everything... actually, not anything. And I don't want to do so also. If you force yourself to do so, that's being injustice with the moments.
Words like joy, happiness are often getting used now a days. The whole world seems to be trying to show this. We forget about reading the faces and feeling this thing, but we learned to talk about this a lot. That's a good thing also, we learned something... But the nucleotide thing is... what makes you happy, joyful? Can you do a bifurcation between happiness & satisfaction? I felt happiness inside me because I felt satisfied sometimes back when I was able to deliver some message, though hints, and in bits & pieces. I was confused, I am confused and I will remain confused about the same. And that is my source for happiness. To being not in this state, I will loose the source.
I read something very interesting about Joy... "Joy is not the result of what you do; Joy is a state of being that enters your heart when you are open to learning and taking loving care of yourself. Joy is the feeling of exuberance and oneness that envelopes you once you have opened to feeling your pain, learning from it, and moving through it." ... Though not completely agreed, as people may have different views/definitions, but I feel good to read this.
I am blank, I am empty, I am full, I am sad, I am happy, I am feeling anything, feeling nothing, I am feeling everything. Its not about love, liking etc..., it can't be. Either it is nothing or more than that. I always wakeup my lazy person inside while defining or giving name to something. Giving name would be injustice... defining may be injustice...Its here and there, its everywhere... its now!!! Experience life in all possible ways -- good-bad, bitter-sweet, dark-light...what matters is you should either feel good about everything, about the experience you are gaining or you have already gained, or should not feel anything. Being sad also can be beautiful, feeling being lonely can have its own experience. Don't know, may be depends...I am still on my stand... I am confused...If you really want to know what it is, you need to be absolutely blank.
As Osho said... "Mind can accept any boundary anywhere. But the reality is that, by its very nature, existence cannot have any boundary, because what will be beyond the boundary - again another sky. That's why I'm saying skies upon skies are available for your flight. Don't be content easily. Those who remain content easily remain small: small are their joys, small are their ecstasies, small are their silences, small is their being. But there is no need! This smallness is your own imposition upon your freedom, upon your unlimited possibilities, upon your unlimited potential."
"All the Buddhas of all the ages have been telling you a very simple fact: Be -- don't try to become. Within these two words, be and becoming, your whole life is contained. Being is enlightenment, becoming is ignorance."
So when I am writing all this above, I am "being", its like A 2 Z... or nothing, thinking nothing, because I can't. I don't have any problems when the time will come and I will say I am "becoming"... because I don't feel any issue being a human... We, the humans always have our own right and wrongs, we manipulate things, we always trying to "becoming"... not "be"... so what...? We are also leaning things, its learning phase... and at some/any moments in our lifetime, we will feel that we should be "being" and will implement...
So many things or may be nothing... :) ... but its like a feeling of joy, may be I take everything like this way, happiness, sadness... anything... I always take an advantage of being confused... someone can vouch on me for this, can say anything to me, good, bad, weird... Its again like being A 2 Z or nothing...
God bless!!! :)
